i really can't exactly explain how i'm feeling now.
all i can say is that i feel so..
sour.

i really miss you.
& i mean it.

i dunno what's gonna happen later.
what you're gonna do,
what you're gonna say,
& last but not least,
what's your decision.

i'm afraid to even know.
i'm scared..

god,
please help me.
i'm really really scared now.

& this is for you..
not that you'll see it,
but maybe,
someday you will..

piggy,
i really don't know what to do.
im scared of the things that you're scared of too.
i'm afraid of losing you too.
but we've gotta believe,
we've gotta trust.
i don't want it to seem like you've been forced to.
it's not that i even mind waiting for you for 7 whole years,
but it's just that if i hadn't talk about this problem,
would you even have thought about it ?
maybe,
maybe not.
i'm so sick of having to explain to people why.
i'm so sick of wondering too.
why so you wanna hide it?
im exhausted, i really am.
i dont feel secured at all.

i do believe that your love for me is real,
& please believe that my love for you is too,
but we've gotta make a decision now.
cos i know,
things are so wrong right now.

i'm sorry i made you feel bad,
i'm sorry for bringing this up,
but i'm really exhausted.

you mean too much to me.
that's why i need ur assurance.

i'll be your crying shoulder,
i'll be love's suicide.

whatever happens,
whatever your final decision is,
even if it means leaving,
2013 [:
i just want you to know that,
even time itself changes, but it's the heart that stays the same.

i love you too piggy.

5:19 PM

come what may.