ohhh noo.
i needa blog !
but i have no time.
gotta rush my christmas gift for w.

the past week or so have been a whole lot of

• video ezy-ing.
• cam-whoring.
• slacking.

etc.

aye, i'll blog when i have the time !

1:52 AM

come what may.

hello !
i need to blog.. like soon.
past few days have been great [:

i cant blog now cos i have the christmas present to do.
365 boxes, 365 quotes :/
no time to waste !

i miss my grandma ):
i miss her being around,
seriously.

& i miss my boy so much !
@!#*%$^&

3:08 AM

come what may.

hello !

its 340am.
and im like really bored D:

& i'll be heading to town tomorrow with ngiam at like 10am,
but im still not sleeping!
@#$%!&^
i can't sleep,
im not tired at all ):
shitt.
boo to that!

but yay to shopping tomorrow! :D
muahaha.
shopping with ngiam is shiok.
that pig better wake up :/

& w* will be meeting us after his show with his friends :D
<3 !

& alex for supper.
bloody hell, this guy is one bloooody piggg.
tsk.

was talking to w about the past.
about how he use to see me running around when i was just sec 1,
how he use to see me in the clubhouse with ngiam,
how he use to feel like pedophile!
HAHAHA.

i felt really good :D
tell me about it,
i love love love him so much! ^^

so,
christmas wishlist?
[:

all i want for christmas is youuu [: foreverrrr, can? [:
& my friends to be there even after they leave bv.
well, THEY LEFT ALR ):
& maybe a shopping spree?

pretty pls?
:/

3:47 AM

come what may.

HELLO.
need to blog :D

heh.
alright,

saturday was vivo along with w*.
wanted to watch the 620 show for The Grudge,
but we were stuck in the carpark for like half and hour,
so we gave the show a miss.

we had to wait for amanda for her show to finish at 11,
so w* and i made our way down to sentosa! :D
haha.
we spent like 2 hours there.
quite dumb,
i know.
heh.

picked amanda up before we headed down to town to pick up alex.
waited for my bro at w's house till 1am before we headed down to changi!
bapok hunting, nasi lemak, and of cos, OCH :D

i guess we were pretty lucky to have met some people there.
and it was actually pretty fun.
too bad we got caught in the end when we were about to cross the linkway !
well, fated i guess.

sunday was..
i can't remember.

monday was spent at town with amanda, marr and jiahui.
funny xmas tree thingy.
LOL.
and that dumb book !
@#$%^&

and today was spent watching ghost game at w's place.
that show is freakyyyyyyy !

night was spent coffee-ing with w*, my bro, amanda and nanda !
after coffee we headed down to geylang for frog leg porridge and tau huey !
yum yum !
fattening i know :/


wanyu beef !
it was part of our dinner at vivo.
super yummy ! [:


on cruise.
at vivo.


^^


i know that i need you in this heart of mine [:

<3

1:35 AM

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OH MY GOD.
I.AM.SO.VERY.PISSED.WITH.MYSELF.NOW.
BECOS I JUST DESTROYED MY PERFECT CHRISTMAS GIFT FOR W*
):

I JUST KEPT TEARING THE PAGES BECOS IT WASNT WHAT I WANTED.
& IN THE END WHEN I COUNTED THE PAGES THAT WE LEFT,
SHIT,
NOT ENOUGHHHHH.

WA LAUUU @#*&^%$

YOU KNOW,
IM REALLY ANGRY NOW.

for the fact that if i buy another book = 27 bucks more.
PLUS,
im not even sure what colours will look nice !
WHAT IF IT TURNS OUT UGLY AGIN?!
):

SHITT,
IM SO ANGRY NOW.

I DONT EVEN FEEL LIKE BLOGGING WHAT WE DID.
SHIT,
I'LL BLOG TMR !

11:05 PM

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hello [:

so i spent my afternoon today over at w*'s place with alex.
movie marathon !
3 movies only though:/
heh.
butterfly effect 2. forbidden siren & red eye.
forbidden siren is dumb !
but it's kinda scary though :/
heh.

after the movie,
we decided to play uno stacko and uno madness !

uno madness is damn freaking fun ! :D
very exciting !
both of them are damn gay.
tsk, they kept screaming.
HAHAHA.
i swear it was damn hilarious !
--

my night was spent baking cookies with w* ! :D
the cookies are really quite yummy !
heh.
our heart shape cookie thingy turned out fine too,
but really retarded though [:


cookies! :D


looks damn retarded ! :D


he looks so cute right! :D
i love it when his hair is FLAT :D
-pinch.


bliss [:


<3

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call.
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all.

I LOVE THIS BOY SO MUCH [:

1:04 AM

come what may.

i just had mac :D
fattening ! ):

so anyway, i guess i wont be sleeping early tonight,
eating + sleeping straight after = more fats :/

so well,
i've been feeling a mixture of emotions today.

i don't eactly know why i'm feeling that though ):
w* seems to be little out of reach.
not that he did anything,
but i guess i just feel that way ?
maybe, i just fear.
):
but baby,
i believe.

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You’re all I need, my love, my Valentine
[:

baby,
dont break my heart ok?
i guess i just need assurance.

sometimes,
i hate thinking so much !
what to do,
im bored and im a girl :/

12:40 AM

come what may.

all the love in the world [:

2:32 PM

come what may.

HELLO ! :D

ayee, i'll be stuck at home the whole day today):
william's in school till 6 ! ):

oh well, nvm,
that gives me time to blog :D
heh.

so saturday was spent at marina square with william.
we only left our house at 4plus cos the rain didn't wanna stop !
so we gave up and went out despite the rain.

final call was a pretty good show.
& they just had to have a love story in it.
didn't made much sense though.
haha.

& it felt really weird going out with him as his gf :/
dont ask me whyyyy.
lol

--
yesterday was equally good.
spent the afternoon at his place rotting and fighting with his cats.
haha.
& stitch is still with him :D
heh.

his sister's bf gave us a lift down to suntec where we walked her to her work place at B&J and we headed off to wisma to meet my mum and her side of the family for dinner :D

he was wearing a tee, berms and slippers,
while i was wearing spag and shorts and slippers.
it's like as if we were going to the beach !
haha.
it feels weird walking around town in that.
haha.
but we didn't really cared :/

bak ku teh was yummy :D
my little cousin loves me,
i swear :D
haha.
& i love her to bits !
but i love him more ^^

hehe.

and tmr i'll be heading down to pp to meet amanda in the afternoon!
wheeee !

okay,
byeeee :D


that's him outside my window !
if you actually know what i'm talking about :p


pretty sunflower from my pretty boy ^^


god sent me and angel from the heaven above [:

<3

2:05 PM

come what may.

magical [:

everything felt so..
good.

shooting star,
ahhh.
unbelievable.

i guess it's all god's will.
somehow [:

okay,
details?
ask me.
and maybe i'll tell you ;]
heh.

<3
10 11 06.

2:14 PM

come what may.

i really can't exactly explain how i'm feeling now.
all i can say is that i feel so..
sour.

i really miss you.
& i mean it.

i dunno what's gonna happen later.
what you're gonna do,
what you're gonna say,
& last but not least,
what's your decision.

i'm afraid to even know.
i'm scared..

god,
please help me.
i'm really really scared now.

& this is for you..
not that you'll see it,
but maybe,
someday you will..

piggy,
i really don't know what to do.
im scared of the things that you're scared of too.
i'm afraid of losing you too.
but we've gotta believe,
we've gotta trust.
i don't want it to seem like you've been forced to.
it's not that i even mind waiting for you for 7 whole years,
but it's just that if i hadn't talk about this problem,
would you even have thought about it ?
maybe,
maybe not.
i'm so sick of having to explain to people why.
i'm so sick of wondering too.
why so you wanna hide it?
im exhausted, i really am.
i dont feel secured at all.

i do believe that your love for me is real,
& please believe that my love for you is too,
but we've gotta make a decision now.
cos i know,
things are so wrong right now.

i'm sorry i made you feel bad,
i'm sorry for bringing this up,
but i'm really exhausted.

you mean too much to me.
that's why i need ur assurance.

i'll be your crying shoulder,
i'll be love's suicide.

whatever happens,
whatever your final decision is,
even if it means leaving,
2013 [:
i just want you to know that,
even time itself changes, but it's the heart that stays the same.

i love you too piggy.

5:19 PM

come what may.

9th november 2006.

i'll never forget this day.

i'm sorry i made you ...

i had no choice,
i cannot take it anymore.

<3

1:53 AM

come what may.

hehe.

i went to school today !
LOL.

and i met w* in the afternoon for a walk at the beach.
we walked from pp allthe way back home via the beach.
it was fun! :D
he kept making a fool outta himself.
hehe.

alright. i shall let pictures do the talking !


GUESS!

w* gave me these !
so sweeeeet ! [:








i can't live,
if living was without you [:

it's been four months of seeing-you-almost-every-single-day,
& i still can't get enough of you ! [:
<3

10:46 PM

come what may.

w* saved the day !

he killed a cockroach just now! ^^v

11:42 PM

come what may.

today was yet another enjoyable day [:

met w* and alex at city hallat about 2pm,
where we headed over to vivo city for some GV loving.
heh.
so we decided on Death Note which was at 6:10.


this guy here is a pig.
a true pig.
tsk.


candid.
but, i likee :D


a proper shot [:
i look a little spastic tho :/


sticky bubble from nowhere.
lol.


boys nowadays.
tsktsk.

amanda joined us after that for the movie.
luckily the ticket next to our seats was still avaliable.
lol.

movie was good.
but the cinema was blooooody cold !
& i think "L" is so bloooody cutee !
i like i like ! :D
his real name is Ken'ichi Matsuyama!
so cute so cute ! :D
hehe.
my new love !
heh.
but w* is still my number 1! ^^

met w*'s dad for dinner after that.
jap food again :D
everytime when im out with the two gays,
it's always jap food.
lol.

so we dropped amanda back at her place before we headed back.
& alex decides to eat ice-cream.
haagen dasz!
crazy pig.

w*'s sister and her bf came too.
and we all kept making fun of the grudge.
ahh, later karma uh. lol.
but i swear it was damn spastic when we were at haagen dasz.
tsk.
alex and his les eye candy.
haha.


w* & i shared this.
yummy [:


w* bought this for me.
damn cuteee ! :D


took this the other day at w*'s place :D
the stitch he adopted from my place.
haha. so spastic.

<3

12:34 AM

come what may.

will time fly?
like reallly fly?

sometimes,
i really wish i was 24.

Now I'm standing here
Arms open wide
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life Baby,
I know things change
And that life needs some rain
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again
Shine light on our love, baby
So let's make this last forever.

<3.

7:52 PM

come what may.