COME WHAT MAY [:

2006-11-30T01:52:00.000+08:00

ohhh noo.
i needa blog !
but i have no time.
gotta rush my christmas gift for w.

the past week or so have been a whole lot of

video ezy-ing.
cam-whoring.
slacking.

etc.

aye, i'll blog when i have the time !

2006-11-26T03:08:00.000+08:00

hello !
i need to blog.. like soon.
past few days have been great [:

i cant blog now cos i have the christmas present to do.
365 boxes, 365 quotes :/
no time to waste !

i miss my grandma ):
i miss her being around,
seriously.

& i miss my boy so much !
@!#*%$^&

2006-11-24T03:47:00.000+08:00

hello !

its 340am.
and im like really bored D:

& i'll be heading to town tomorrow with ngiam at like 10am,
but im still not sleeping!
@#$%!&^
i can't sleep,
im not tired at all ):
shitt.
boo to that!

but yay to shopping tomorrow! :D
muahaha.
shopping with ngiam is shiok.
that pig better wake up :/

& w* will be meeting us after his show with his friends :D
<3 !

& alex for supper.
bloody hell, this guy is one bloooody piggg.
tsk.

was talking to w about the past.
about how he use to see me running around when i was just sec 1,
how he use to see me in the clubhouse with ngiam,
how he use to feel like pedophile!
HAHAHA.

i felt really good :D
tell me about it,
i love love love him so much! ^^

so,
christmas wishlist?
[:

all i want for christmas is youuu [: foreverrrr, can? [:
& my friends to be there even after they leave bv.
well, THEY LEFT ALR ):
& maybe a shopping spree?

pretty pls?
:/

2006-11-22T01:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO.
need to blog :D

heh.
alright,

saturday was vivo along with w*.
wanted to watch the 620 show for The Grudge,
but we were stuck in the carpark for like half and hour,
so we gave the show a miss.

we had to wait for amanda for her show to finish at 11,
so w* and i made our way down to sentosa! :D
haha.
we spent like 2 hours there.
quite dumb,
i know.
heh.

picked amanda up before we headed down to town to pick up alex.
waited for my bro at w's house till 1am before we headed down to changi!
bapok hunting, nasi lemak, and of cos, OCH :D

i guess we were pretty lucky to have met some people there.
and it was actually pretty fun.
too bad we got caught in the end when we were about to cross the linkway !
well, fated i guess.

sunday was..
i can't remember.

monday was spent at town with amanda, marr and jiahui.
funny xmas tree thingy.
LOL.
and that dumb book !
@#$%^&

and today was spent watching ghost game at w's place.
that show is freakyyyyyyy !

night was spent coffee-ing with w*, my bro, amanda and nanda !
after coffee we headed down to geylang for frog leg porridge and tau huey !
yum yum !
fattening i know :/

wanyu beef !
it was part of our dinner at vivo.
super yummy ! [:

on cruise.
at vivo.

^^

i know that i need you in this heart of mine [:

<3

2006-11-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD.
I.AM.SO.VERY.PISSED.WITH.MYSELF.NOW.
BECOS I JUST DESTROYED MY PERFECT CHRISTMAS GIFT FOR W*
):

I JUST KEPT TEARING THE PAGES BECOS IT WASNT WHAT I WANTED.
& IN THE END WHEN I COUNTED THE PAGES THAT WE LEFT,
SHIT,
NOT ENOUGHHHHH.

WA LAUUU @#*&^%$

YOU KNOW,
IM REALLY ANGRY NOW.

for the fact that if i buy another book = 27 bucks more.
PLUS,
im not even sure what colours will look nice !
WHAT IF IT TURNS OUT UGLY AGIN?!
):

SHITT,
IM SO ANGRY NOW.

I DONT EVEN FEEL LIKE BLOGGING WHAT WE DID.
SHIT,
I'LL BLOG TMR !

2006-11-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

hello [:

so i spent my afternoon today over at w*'s place with alex.
movie marathon !
3 movies only though:/
heh.
butterfly effect 2. forbidden siren & red eye.
forbidden siren is dumb !
but it's kinda scary though :/
heh.

after the movie,
we decided to play uno stacko and uno madness !

uno madness is damn freaking fun ! :D
very exciting !
both of them are damn gay.
tsk, they kept screaming.
HAHAHA.
i swear it was damn hilarious !
--

my night was spent baking cookies with w* ! :D
the cookies are really quite yummy !
heh.
our heart shape cookie thingy turned out fine too,
but really retarded though [:

cookies! :D

looks damn retarded ! :D

he looks so cute right! :D
i love it when his hair is FLAT :D
-pinch.

bliss [:

<3

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call.
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all.

I LOVE THIS BOY SO MUCH [:

2006-11-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

i just had mac :D
fattening ! ):

so anyway, i guess i wont be sleeping early tonight,
eating + sleeping straight after = more fats :/

so well,
i've been feeling a mixture of emotions today.

i don't eactly know why i'm feeling that though ):
w* seems to be little out of reach.
not that he did anything,
but i guess i just feel that way ?
maybe, i just fear.
):
but baby,
i believe.

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You’re all I need, my love, my Valentine
[:

baby,
dont break my heart ok?
i guess i just need assurance.

sometimes,
i hate thinking so much !
what to do,
im bored and im a girl :/

2006-11-14T14:32:00.000+08:00

all the love in the world [:

2006-11-13T14:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO ! :D

ayee, i'll be stuck at home the whole day today):
william's in school till 6 ! ):

oh well, nvm,
that gives me time to blog :D
heh.

so saturday was spent at marina square with william.
we only left our house at 4plus cos the rain didn't wanna stop !
so we gave up and went out despite the rain.

final call was a pretty good show.
& they just had to have a love story in it.
didn't made much sense though.
haha.

& it felt really weird going out with him as his gf :/
dont ask me whyyyy.
lol

--
yesterday was equally good.
spent the afternoon at his place rotting and fighting with his cats.
haha.
& stitch is still with him :D
heh.

his sister's bf gave us a lift down to suntec where we walked her to her work place at B&J and we headed off to wisma to meet my mum and her side of the family for dinner :D

he was wearing a tee, berms and slippers,
while i was wearing spag and shorts and slippers.
it's like as if we were going to the beach !
haha.
it feels weird walking around town in that.
haha.
but we didn't really cared :/

bak ku teh was yummy :D
my little cousin loves me,
i swear :D
haha.
& i love her to bits !
but i love him more ^^

hehe.

and tmr i'll be heading down to pp to meet amanda in the afternoon!
wheeee !

okay,
byeeee :D

that's him outside my window !
if you actually know what i'm talking about :p

pretty sunflower from my pretty boy ^^

god sent me and angel from the heaven above [:

<3

2006-11-11T14:14:00.000+08:00

magical [:

everything felt so..
good.

shooting star,
ahhh.
unbelievable.

i guess it's all god's will.
somehow [:

okay,
details?
ask me.
and maybe i'll tell you ;]
heh.

<3
10 11 06.

2006-11-10T17:19:00.000+08:00

i really can't exactly explain how i'm feeling now.
all i can say is that i feel so..
sour.

i really miss you.
& i mean it.

i dunno what's gonna happen later.
what you're gonna do,
what you're gonna say,
& last but not least,
what's your decision.

i'm afraid to even know.
i'm scared..

god,
please help me.
i'm really really scared now.

& this is for you..
not that you'll see it,
but maybe,
someday you will..

piggy,
i really don't know what to do.
im scared of the things that you're scared of too.
i'm afraid of losing you too.
but we've gotta believe,
we've gotta trust.
i don't want it to seem like you've been forced to.
it's not that i even mind waiting for you for 7 whole years,
but it's just that if i hadn't talk about this problem,
would you even have thought about it ?
maybe,
maybe not.
i'm so sick of having to explain to people why.
i'm so sick of wondering too.
why so you wanna hide it?
im exhausted, i really am.
i dont feel secured at all.

i do believe that your love for me is real,
& please believe that my love for you is too,
but we've gotta make a decision now.
cos i know,
things are so wrong right now.

i'm sorry i made you feel bad,
i'm sorry for bringing this up,
but i'm really exhausted.

you mean too much to me.
that's why i need ur assurance.

i'll be your crying shoulder,
i'll be love's suicide.

whatever happens,
whatever your final decision is,
even if it means leaving,
2013 [:
i just want you to know that,
even time itself changes, but it's the heart that stays the same.

i love you too piggy.

2006-11-10T01:53:00.000+08:00

9th november 2006.

i'll never forget this day.

i'm sorry i made you ...

i had no choice,
i cannot take it anymore.

<3

2006-11-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

hehe.

i went to school today !
LOL.

and i met w* in the afternoon for a walk at the beach.
we walked from pp allthe way back home via the beach.
it was fun! :D
he kept making a fool outta himself.
hehe.

alright. i shall let pictures do the talking !

GUESS!

w* gave me these !
so sweeeeet ! [:

i can't live,
if living was without you [:

it's been four months of seeing-you-almost-every-single-day,
& i still can't get enough of you ! [:
<3

2006-11-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

w* saved the day !

he killed a cockroach just now! ^^v

2006-11-04T00:34:00.001+08:00

today was yet another enjoyable day [:

met w* and alex at city hallat about 2pm,
where we headed over to vivo city for some GV loving.
heh.
so we decided on Death Note which was at 6:10.

this guy here is a pig.
a true pig.
tsk.

candid.
but, i likee :D

a proper shot [:
i look a little spastic tho :/

sticky bubble from nowhere.
lol.

boys nowadays.
tsktsk.

amanda joined us after that for the movie.
luckily the ticket next to our seats was still avaliable.
lol.

movie was good.
but the cinema was blooooody cold !
& i think "L" is so bloooody cutee !
i like i like ! :D
his real name is Ken'ichi Matsuyama!
so cute so cute ! :D
hehe.
my new love !
heh.
but w* is still my number 1! ^^

met w*'s dad for dinner after that.
jap food again :D
everytime when im out with the two gays,
it's always jap food.
lol.

so we dropped amanda back at her place before we headed back.
& alex decides to eat ice-cream.
haagen dasz!
crazy pig.

w*'s sister and her bf came too.
and we all kept making fun of the grudge.
ahh, later karma uh. lol.
but i swear it was damn spastic when we were at haagen dasz.
tsk.
alex and his les eye candy.
haha.

w* & i shared this.
yummy [:

w* bought this for me.
damn cuteee ! :D

took this the other day at w*'s place :D
the stitch he adopted from my place.
haha. so spastic.

<3

2006-11-01T19:52:00.000+08:00

will time fly?
like reallly fly?

sometimes,
i really wish i was 24.

Now I'm standing here
Arms open wide
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life Baby,
I know things change
And that life needs some rain
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again
Shine light on our love, baby
So let's make this last forever.

<3.

2006-10-29T19:58:00.000+08:00

hello ! ^^

it's been awhile, & so much happened !
and i really mean alot [:

for the past week, i've been out with my family, both mum and dad's side.
and that explains why i haven't been blogging.
heh.
and w* was with me all these while.
it feels good [:

yesterday's dinner at myhumblehouse was good.
family & him [:

the last thing my dad told w* before he left for the airport was
"if my daughter gets into any trouble, get her out of it!"
oh daddy daddy,
he's so cute.
heh.

& our dear william drove me nuts today !
<3 <3 <3! [:

forever & ever, babe.

i've always believed that the word "forever" is cursed and i never dared to use it.
cos i believed that if i'd say forever, it'll not be forever.
but this time, i believe that this love would overcome anything,
cos baby,
i believe.
& i wanna say,
i'll love you forever and ever babe.
i swear.

flying kisses.

2006-10-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

for the past four days, w* was with me at the wake [:
that somehow made me felt better.

& my whole paternal[?] side of the family knows him.
when i say whole, i mean EVEYONE.
and they address him as my bf ! :/
wtf.

but it was nice,
everyone liked him [:
i like him too ^^ heh.
not that he's my bf tho.
HAHAHAH.
but we have our reasons,
& im just lazy to explain,
so too bad if you dont know!
^^

well, i never knew my parents were ok with things like this :/
they really didn't mind him being there.
infact, they want him to be there.
and patricia says that he's cute ! :D
heh.

and i spent 21 hours with w* yesterday [:

i was sick after the wake.
i vomitted like 3 times ?
and w* was there taking care of me ^^
i felt so much better.
and i even fell asleep on his shoulders!
he was holding on to me everywhere we went,
cos i couldn't even walk properly.

when im at my weakest, w* was there for me.
he even said that he've never ever seen me so vunerable before,
& he was glad that he did,
cos he could be there for me [:

i was with him all the way till 4am yesterday ! [:
while my bro and warren were at mos,
i decided that im NOT GONNA GO,
so w* and i went for a walk all the way till 4am [:
ahh, it was nice !

& as for today,
my parents invited w* for dinner at some open air resturant at mt faber.
it was sucha pretty place!
too bad it wasnt just the both of us :x
heh.
but it was nice.

and when we went over to some wine garage for a drink,
my parents were super high lah.
i dont know whyyyy.
my mum even said " if u wanna be with my little girl, u better work hard "
!!!!!! :/
and my dad,
" my daughter not easy to handle, u better teach her blah blah.."
!!!!! :/

it fel really weird lah ! :/
but i was really happy lah :D
everything seems like a fairytale now.
and i know,
its my grandma who's blessing us.
thankyouforeverything.

& i so miss him now ):

tell me it's meant to be baby.

2006-10-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

cherish.

i guess i saw it coming.
it was a 13 then a 21.

i was just glad then i went to see her the day before and made it in time before she left.
i guess she's happier now.

i've never said this to you,
but i love you grandma.

i'll miss the times you nag and me and ask me to off ur lights before i use the phone.

& many thanks to ngiam who was on the phone with me,
& also to w* and alex who wrote me a card.

<3.

2006-10-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

my horoscope says :
Pick up the phone and make a call. It's time to learn where you two are headed.

):
i wanna know too.
i wanna know where we're heading.

sometimes,
things just seem so uncertain?
i.don't.know.

you know,
i just fear.

yes i trust,
but how long can i hold when sometimes,
i just don't know what you're thinking?

ahh,
): piggy....

2006-10-15T16:41:00.000+08:00

i'll be your life partner, and your beloved till the day you breathe your last breath. and have beautiful children just like us.

i'll grant you yourwish [:

2013.
i'll wait.
we'll wait.

2006-10-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

it's been 30 mins since i last saw you,
& i miss you already ):

2013.
2017.
will you stick by this ?
cos i swear i would.

a part of me wants myself to be in tmr,
cos i know then,
you'll be here through the night [:

ahh,
i miss you piggy !
):

2006-10-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

HELLO !
i'm back ! heh.

headed over to his tower first to pass him the box of things :D
and i saw the balloons,
they weren't floating already D:
but he said that some were still floating in mid air when he woke up :D
so my plan worked !
HEH.

we were watching some horror movie while waiting for alex to come.
H20. it's really damn gross lah :/

some of the stuff in the box.

the photo album !

i was wearing HIS shirt^^
heh. cos we were watching tv, so i din wanna end up messing my shirt up [:

birthday boy!

so,
vivocity is damn shiok! :D
it's so so so huge lah !
seriosuly huge.
and there's EVERYTHING there !

they were both damn mean lah !
kept temptimg me to look at the girl's stuff >;[
i never knew guys could be so irritating,
tempting a girl to shop ! tsk !

so we actually wanted to eat at some fancy grilled jap food resturant thingy,
but it was so packed!
everywhere was packed ! :/

oh and i saw serene and ji.
LOL

so we ended up back at town.
lol.
we ended up eating at 9 plus :/
we ate at that very nice jap resturant behind that starhub building.
we waited for a very long time for our turn ):
so, we cam-whored :D
HEH.
& & & we saw sun yan zi !
she's skinny :/

the food there is really worth the wait though.
so, go give it a try ! [:

alex's bowl of food was HUGE !

& then it was home sweet home.
with a little bit of time spend by the pool with w*
[:

i'm glad i made his day special.
[: heh.

happy birthday my dear pig! [:

happy birthday love! [:
that's my whatever sign to him ! ^^

2006-10-13T11:15:00.000+08:00

HELLO !

guess what was the first thing i did when i woke up ! :D
heh.
reversi !
it's so fun !
heh.
elroy is my reversi friend !
MUAHAHAHA.

so,
i'll be heading to vivo city later !
YAYYYY ! :D
i'm so excited !
heh.

TAAAA !
but today's friday the thirteeen :/

2006-10-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

HELLLO !

so,
i gave him the 21 balloons just now !
heh ^^

i cycled all the wayto serene's place before we both headed down to pp to get the balloons done.
& it looks really pretty ! [:

run out of pp with the balloons all to way back to our bikes,
& one of the balloon burst!
luckily i was smart, i bought extra! :D

so,
initially the plan was to cycle with it,
but guess what,
it was seriosuly impossible.
cos we had to cycle with one hand all the way back to my place?
which was really quite impossible, cos the balloons were flying in our direction.
ayee, so i had no choice but to cycle to serene's place and leave my bike there, & take a cab back :/

& i went over to his tower and asked him to look out of his window ^^
his dad was really cute !
he wanted one balloon, cos he had never ever received any before.
heh.
so cute lar.

tmr i'll probably be at town with w and his gay bf.
so yes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY W* ! [:

2006-10-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

101006 [:

hello!
GUESS WHAT!

my exams are OVERRRR !
:D
BYE BYE EOYS !
:D

heh.
i feel so much better now.
i feel less stress already !
[: pimples go away !
i have like 10 pimples on my face which really sucks !
): but i'm sure it'll go soon.

monday :
w&i shared a box of 20 piece nuggets :/
omg,
i feeel soooo fattttt.
whattt annnnn asssss heeeee isssss.
):
mugged mugged mugged.
):

tuesday:
art art and more art!
tuesday is a happy day ! [:
[: [: [:
& i won't tell you why !
heh.

wednesday:
END OF EOYS!
muahaha.
came back straight from school and i went cycling with w*.
i feel so lousy lah,
cycle abit only then CMI already ):

went over to pp after that.
& guess what !
he bought me and himself this dino hp thingy from MU EE
it's so bloody cute lar the dino !
hehe :D
when i saw it in the display i was like,
"omg ! so cuteeee ! "
heh.

and we ended up watching dorm at his place.
it's a nice show!
it's not the typical horror movie thing.
so
it's nice! :D
go watch go watch!
heh.

& i received the sweetest msg ever from w* awhile ago.
"lay ur trust with me. i'll wait for you"
[:
and yes w*,
i've fallen in love with you all over again.
[:

101006,
yes,
it's special [:

2006-10-07T01:16:00.000+08:00

hellos!

it was pp today with ngiam to get bday present for her friend.
it's been a while since we last laughed so hard together.
i swear,
she's retarded.
haha.
"doo doo" " frenz 4eva" " toilet?"
HAHAHAHA.
*insiderrs.

& so, we made w* carry that 3/4 size of amanda ballon!
it's damn cute lah :D
heh.

& guess what!
it's lantern festival today!
or rather,
yesterday :D
haha.

i went to w* house in the evening first while waiting for alex.
we watched some show called forces of nature.
it's a very nice/not-common-love-story kinda thing.
it's really meaningful ! [:

alex joined use at 9 ?
& they stared watching BLEACH !
-.-"'
i tell you,
it's damn boring lah!
lol.

oh and u know what! ):
i saw this box where he keeps things from his ex gf g*.
and YOU KNOW WHAT!
i saw a photo album scrap book thingy.
):
AHHH.
mine like not special already!
):
oh well.
back to the moon! :D

we played with the candles :D
which was damn fun lar.
haha.
sorry, but it was really retarded playing with the candles instead of walking around with the lantern.
oh, but we did walk around with the lanterns.
i feel like a kid all over again,
with two grown man though ):

lol.
alright, shall let the pictures do the talking !
[:

pretty candles!
the wax was really fun to play with :D

middle pic 2 gays, COUPLE PIC ^^
& yes, we just sat there and play with the candles for a veryyy looong timee.
haha.

very cool pictures! :D
we were walking around with the lanterns.
heh.

middle row, 1st picture, w*'s sister.
middle row, last pic, w*'s room.
not like you can see anything. lol.

[:

2006-10-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

omg,
im so in love with geog now!
:D
did 4 hours of geog today with w*.
it's the first time we mug so hard together !
whee

haha,
we didn't talk much you know :D
im so proud of myself !
muahaha.

& guess what,
4 hrs and im still not done!
):

i bet i wont be able to sleep early tonight.
AHH ):

nvm,
jia you ah bun!
:D

2006-10-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

i was having a bad headache just now.
ahh,
i can't get ss into my head!
):

& i miss w so much.
ahhh.

there's this fear in me which is disallowing me to trust him.
cos i fear that i'll lose him thus i think alot and i'll fear.

it's not that i wanna think so much,
but my intuition is always right.
by thinking,
i get to the right and sensible solutions.

ahh,
i really needa trust him !
yesterday when he told me "trust me siobhan"
i melted.
literally.
i felt his sincerity through his voice and eyes.
i so wanna make myself trust him,
but i just can't.
cos i still fear.

i fear,
so bad ):

im gonna flunk math tmr ):
headache headache go away!

ni zhai na li?
):

2006-10-04T18:47:00.000+08:00

so things are pretty much sorted out i guess.
i told him EVERYTHING.
and i really mean everything!.

well,
initially i was still angry with him yesterday.
but when alex came,
i sorta like stopped ignoring w* ?
yeah.
ahhh,

well,
i guess all i can do is to trust him now
[:

& btw,
he's meeting g* tonight.
(crazy ex gf)

aye,
he ask if i mind,
well,
i obviously said no i dont.
but obviously,
I DO MIND !
:/

ahh.
studying mode!
):

2006-10-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

omg,
FREAKKKK !

LG phones can't save msges!
not that i know of.
UGHHH.
so annoying !
-
so yesterday was probabaly the worst day of my life.
i still don't get it.
what's that girl doing in villa marina?
i guess god just wanted me to know.
ahh, i'm so glad i walked out earlier than i should,
or i would not have seen them walking together.

i felt so cheated.
i've never ever felt so cheated before.
i called ngiam and she decided to make her way down.
and i called serene,
& finally couldn't take it anymore.
i just couldnt stop myself from *.

w* called,
then i acted pretty normal.
and then he asked.
" are you angry? "
"no im not "
"she's just a friend you know "
hello?!
did i say she's not?
so, is he feeling guilty?
yes.

he begged me to meet him at the pool,
so i went.

he kept asking me what's wrong.
& i said nothing.
what can i tell him ?
who am i to tell him?

& when he kept trying to get my hands,
i rejected and pulled back.
i feel cheated already,
why should i play with his hands like i use to?

i felt like crying again,
i felt so bad.
i felt so distant from him though he was just infronta me.
i felt like there's a barrier between us now.

& i finally told w* everything.
everything that i've been feeling all these while.
i told his i didn't know what i am to him and all.
and this wa shis reply.

"sometimes i just want to tell u to be my life pathner/gf.. but yet i cant. rmb i say good things are worth waiting for? i feel stress too making you feel we're close yet we're not. im sorry if i make you feel lost. i do care abt you alot and i want to apologise. i want to be in ya life for long. not try things and risk screwing them up. "

i felt a stab.
i felt like i've said the wrong thing.
but then again,
i felt his sincerity.
that wasnt the only thing he said,
but yeah,
that was probably one of the more impt ones.

but no, im not gonna give in this time.
i can't just take it that nothing is wrong like i always do.
this time,
it's not the same.

i still wanna know,
what is she doing at his place?
wasn't his suppsoe to meet me?
i waited and waited.
and when he finally called after 2 hours,
i saw him with someone else.

stab.

i felt so shit that the first thing i wanted to do was to walk back home and tear the things in that box up.
i wanted to throw the cranes out of the window,
tear the album up.
but then again,
i couldnt bear to do it.

why do so much for him when im always feeling so lost?
& when im alwaysfeeling uncertain?

a woman's intuiation[?] is always right.
i can trust myself on that.

i know what im thinking and feeling now is right.

thank you to those who were there.
ngiam, rene, jaz, marr, wong, kiang, el.
& surprise surprise.
mr tour guide talked to me yesterday at like 1 in the morning.
that sorta put my mind off some stuff.
thankyou for just talking [:

i miss him so bad now.
& what makes it worse,
i have a paper tmr and i'm sick.
fuck.

2006-10-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

i've never felt so hurt ever before.

2006-10-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

im worried.

wheree are you?

didn't call me,
didn't reply my msg.

this is not normal.

:/

2006-10-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

why issit that everytime im troubled,
you can actually tell ?

why?
can't you just not be able to tell?
sigh ):

when you kept asking what's wrong,
i dunno why but i just blurted out
"why should i tell you just becos you wanna know?"
& your reply,
" becos i care? "

ahh,
i dont know.
you make me so confuse you know.

sometimes i just keep askingmyself,
"am i someone you come home to meet just cos you're coming home? "

william,
you know i felt so lonely today ):
and where were you?
i was left all alone at home feeding the dog, buying stuff from ntuc, cleaning, clearing the things
& i don't even know where the hell you were.
i felt so..
helpless.
& when u finally called,
you wanted me to go meet you.
why should i when u ask me to?
when i was trying to look for you,
you were nowhere to be found.
but yet when you want me,
i've gotta be there?
why should i?
):

why am i even putting myself through such torment?

i should pull myself outta this.
shouldn't i?
):

2006-10-01T02:46:00.000+08:00

i'm like talking to marr online now.
[:

ahh, nice talks about the men !
you know,
sometimes i guess i think too much ?
but,
it really isn't my fault.
i'm a girl,
i'm sensitive.

ahh,
and sometimes i dont know if i rather you tell me everything or not.

you do,
which is good.
but sometimes,
i just rather you not ?

he said that i can never leave his life cos he wont allow me to.
but what if he leaves mine ?
):

ahh, women :/

i wanna be superwoman!
i wanna be able to fly to him anytime i like.

tho sometimes he claims that he's superman,
i doubt he is!
):

whereeeee areeeee youuuuu william lim!
):

i can't sleep now becos of you!

i
miss
you ):

2006-10-01T01:28:00.000+08:00

2012 [:

hawaii !
[:

i miss you ):

2006-09-30T13:06:00.000+08:00

oh and did i mention !
i was sitting in between alex and w* !
omg.
i felt sooo weird :/

2006-09-30T00:41:00.000+08:00

ok yes,
thankyou ngiam for thatvery genius plan.
it's working :D
muahah.
heh.

so,
it wasn't that bad afterall lah.
w*'s dad came along too though.
initially,
i felt like. " omg shitt ! wth. die already. ultimate shitness!"

but infact,
it turned out fine [:
his dad is as spastic as w* is.
:x
seriously.

so,
we ended up watching 'stay alive'
well,
it's a pretty good show.
but the storyline is really dumb !
pretty horrifying though.
but,
i was brave! :D
muahaha.

w*'s dad left and the three of us went over to ecp for dinner.
omg,
it was damn weird walking by the beach.

oh, and it looked like i was out with my dad and older brothers.
:/ ahh yes, that weird.

so,
movie-dinner-bv gossips-beach-bowling-homed [:

ahh,
managed to spend some time at the pool before i headed home.
whee :D

oh well,
i've gotta mug like crap tmr!
[:

oh,
& my maid might leave the hse for the hospital tonight to look after my grandma, which means that i'll be left home ALONE.
cos my bro will probably be out till tmr.
AHHHH.

):
so freaky lah.

w* wheree areee youuu?
):

2006-09-29T15:08:00.000+08:00

OMG !
OMG !
OMG !

i cannot believe it!
alex is coming tonight!
):

it's not that i dont like it or anything,
but it's just weird ?
me, w & alex?
huh, like weird right!
:/

omg, HOW !

and guess what,
we're watching a MOVIE you know!
omg :/
isn't that just so weird :/

aiya,
die already lah !
):

2006-09-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

HELLO ! [:

everything is fine already i guess.

but can i just say.
omg,
w is so dumb !
:/

he actually asked alex to join us tmr lah !
$@#!*&!
omggggggg !

luckily everything is settled now.
i'll just meet him in the evening.
he'll be donating blood in the afternoon.
so yup.
yay, no alex :x

ohoh !
and w* has small hands!
muhahaha.

i have one whole stack to geog notes to read D:
i've only studied like 10% of it.
there really is alot!
):
i tried to study as much as i can today.
but i ended up stoning again !

well,
i gotta thank serene for photocopying it for me tho [:
oh,
and poor her,
she lost her cam!

oh well, pp1 tmr!
):
wish me luck people!

<3

2006-09-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

so,
i met him just now.

& he really did went to meet her.
as i expected.

when he told me what happen and all,
i might have appeared really fine infronta him.
but,
im not.

doesn't he get it?
hello,
i really dont like listening to him rant about her.

after what he told me,
i just dont get it.
why does it affect him ?
why feel guilty ?
you're not responsible for her life anymore you know.

though i might not have said anything to him,
i had alot to say.
i had alot to question him about.
but i just didn't.

i guess i just didn't want to appear vunerable infronta him.

though w* might always try to assure me,
i never felt really assured about it.

cos,
i fear.
i dont wanna lose him.

):

2006-09-27T12:30:00.000+08:00

sigh.
all was well yesterday.
we went for lunch,
we went to the beach.
we talk about her and you said that you don't like her anymore.
i believed.

i love spending time with you.

and today,
EVERYTHING went topsy -turvy.
i woke up late.
i took like forever to bathe.
i left the house.
i ran back cos i forgot that i needed coins.
no bus, so i had to take a cab.
rushed rushed like crazy.

and how much more worst can it get ?
you msged me telling me that ure depressed.
something happened yesterday.
she called and you talked to her.
some things she told you that made you feel upset.

so you think only the both of you are upset ?
what about me ?
have you totally forgot about me ?
i'm feeling very upset too you know?

and when i asked you what happened.
you didn't reply.
i guess i'll just leave you alone.
sigh ):

how can you do this to me ?

luckily eng oral went fine.
at least i made my examiner laugh.

im gonna meet joan and wong at 2.
i need to talk to someone.
like now ):

sigh.
tell me whats happening.
will you ?

ying wei wo xing li you san ge zi bu neng gao shu ni.
( there's 3 words in my heart that i cant tell you about.)

& now i know, how much it means for you to stay right here with me.
):
where are you ?
imu.

2006-09-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

i'm quite affected by the fact that you're depressed that you and g* turned out this way.

weren't you already over her?
yes i know.
i shouldnt sound so ___ here.

oh well,
i guess i gotta learn how to understand.
i guess,
i just ain't understanding enough.
i guess,
sometimes i just think too much ?

can i just stop thinking so much !
>;(

i'm so very affected by it.
but,
who am i even ?
):

and thankyouverymuch to those who were online
& talked me through.
joan seng, amanda wong, kiang hua, calvin [:
thankyou !
and of cos to bk who's the JINX [:
he's always msging me when smth bad happens.
seriously :/
ahh kidding.
heh.
THANKS!

<3
my heart's heavy,
heavy like a rock.

2006-09-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

SEXY JON LOST ):

BUT IT'S OKAY.
you'll do fine !
it's only the beginning ! [:

I STILL LOVE YOU SEXY JON [:
HEH !

2006-09-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG !
wong got the tickets for SG idol tonight,
BUT,
mummy didn't allow me to go lar !
$!@#^& !
):
wa lauu!
very saddening you know !
)':

oh,
and i went around pestering people today to vote for jonathan!
HEH.

omg,
i really hope he wins tonight lar !
[:
ALL THE WAY JONNY LEONG!

his rendition of chasing cars was so damn bloody good !
[:

even if he doesn't win,
iguess it doesnt matter that much lar.
he'll make it somewhere.
i'm sure !
:D
go jonny go !

OKAY PEOPLE,
FOR ONE LAST TIME,
SMS 1 TO 43657 NOW!

2006-09-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

PLEASE VOTE FOR JONATHAN LEONG !

SMS "1" TO 43657 NOW!

HE WILL BE THE NEXT SG IDOL ! ^^

<3
thankyouverymuch !

vote for jonathan !
:D

2006-09-24T16:35:00.000+08:00

I Wanna Grow Old With You

Another day without your smile
another day has passed us by
and now I know how much it means
for you to stay right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
but it hurts so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

[:
-

so,
i doubt i'll be seeing him today !
):
he's off to the airport to studyy.
-sulks.
but oh well,
he has a test tomorrow!
so it's okay !
heh.

aiiya,
i miss him !
i've been day-dreaming ALOT today!
omg :/

stop it siobhan,
stop it!

oh and his bday present is almost done!
WEEEE !
but i'd wished it looked prettier though.
):

i'll be meeting ivy and ngiam for coffee like soon.
but ngiam is so slow!
>:(
tsk.

<3
baby,
i believe.

2006-09-24T01:14:00.000+08:00

JOAN
JOAN
JOAN
JOAN !

heh,
see your name!
i love you lar kay !
heh :D

2006-09-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

HELLO [:

so,
i went over to w*'s place in the afternoon to watch an amercian haunting.
that show is damn freaky lar :/
even a big man like him got scared!
(not that he acts like one. tsk)
HAHA.

oh well,
go watch it k people! :D

channel surf-ed after that.
it was nice just sitting & watching tv [:
ahh,
bliss.

heh.
oh well.
and today's a special day !
[:
dont tell you why!

ahhhhh!
can i say that w* is the most lovable thingy on earth !?
:x

-
went over to grandma's place after that for my little cousin's birthday party !
she one year old already.
& she's so bloody adorable!
hehe.

spent 2 hours or so talking to my aunt about ghostly stuff.
so fun you know!
i've got a cool aunt who goes to the red-house.
i never knew!
and she's like 40 btw.
whee,
im planning to go with her along with my cousins the next time :D

heh.
and i just realise that all our names starts with the letter S except my bro's!
:/
siobhan, shaun, sham, shantay, aloysius :/
haha.

oh well,
i had so much fun today!
after sucha long time [:
love.

OHOH.
i forgot to mention.
w*'s grandma lives in telok blangah crec, blk 15 too!
and that's where my grandma lives :D
ahh, soo cool !
and the people in tb are really close to one another,
so they probably know one another eh.
:D
heh.

dino! aunt kate's new dog!
he's only 3 months old!
cute eh!

my little cousin!
the most adorable little kid on earth ^^
kisses![:

<3 size="2">no matter how long it may be [:

2006-09-23T12:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO [:

so,
i was kinda ignoring him yesterday :/

ahh,
you can't blame me ok!
he kinda "lied" to me.
but i doubt he realised tho.
pfft.

so in the end he won me back :x
ahh,
he gave me this heart thingy.
and he wrote my name all over :D

wa lau,
why am i so petty !
i dont get it!
>:(

then he say i go moodswing!
):

well, at least i managed to finish 4 chapters of geography yesterday !
yay :D

okay,
so e went for muddy mudpie after that !
whee.
very yummy you know !

& he told me that he's been very stressed of late.
cos of something alex said.
>:(
why always alex oneee.
%$#@!

so everything is fine now [:

oh,
& thankyou to C for sorta answering my questions.
i needed a guy to answer questions like this :/

<3
melt with you.

2006-09-22T18:50:00.000+08:00

why put myself through such torment?

i'm tired of this.
i'm tired of guessing & wondering all the time.

i don't wanna play no more.

2006-09-21T23:50:00.001+08:00

i miss the good old times.

about everything.
every single thing.

i miss my friends.
i miss the times we had ):
prelims..
you suck lah.
suck ok >;(

i miss you.
the old you.

not that you've changed or what.
it's just that you we dont play like we use to anymore?
actually,
it's just that.
YOU DONT SMELL MY HAIR ANYMORE ):

it's kinda sad you know :/
i'll just turn a little moody and all :/

not that we dont play,
we still do.
oh, and it's getting lamerrrrr.
i dont know, sometimes i just feel like im playing with some 12 year old kid.
like today,
we were playing with the pillows at the club hse-.-

ahh,
i just miss the times when we'll talk about everything.
when you'll tickle me and all ):

):
):

2006-09-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

2006-09-20T19:52:00.000+08:00

HEELO ! :D

yesterday was spent studying at Gelare which didn't exactly happen :/
haha.
Gelare isn't condusive AT ALL.
seriously,
i cannot sit still !
the seat there seriously sucks lar :/
even w* agrees!
i only managed to do one chapter of social studies !
):

so we made our way back to the club house.
whee,
and i fell asleep :D
well, he continued studying though.
haha.
wtf right.
my contacts were killing me lar.
maybe that's why :/

yesterday was not good at all.
tsk.

--
TODAY !

school was not very fun.
za didn't come ):
manda's in OBS.
so i was left alone !
luckily there was fernanda, hsin yi, yan ru & xinying!
:D
it wasn't that bad after all then.
heh.
oh, and i managed to study more too !
heh.
no one to gossip to what.
heh :x

went back home straight after school.
my tummy was growling ):
heh.
and w* called at the right time! :D
whee,
so he met me and we went for lunch!
and that silly boy is sick ! ):
kfc kfc! ^^

went back and we decided to take rascal for a walk !
heh.
oh and rascal is scared of him lar.
omg, timid dog.
heh,
and w* is damn amused by rascal,
cos rascal does really really silly stuff.

& this song's from w*
sucha sweetie [:
heh.
made me melt!

Something Worth Living For
Shayne Ward

I dont wanna leave you here all by yourself
I just wanna let you know i'm there for you like noone else
I dont wanna drift off to another place
I just wanna lay here in your arms with your hand on my face

So lets not ever tell the moon about the sun
I'll keep hearing love songs, hoping every wrong's undone
Its foolish but we've only just begun
I dont wanna stop this, all my walls are caving in

I wanna give you something worth living for
I wanna tell you this and so much more
Your my everything
My universe

Im so mesmerised by your serenity
Hopefully you'll take me there inside your dreams
Just like all the leaves im falling over you
Its so unbelieveable the airs so true

[:
you make me wanna,

2006-09-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

SUDDEN REALISATION !

W* " i'll save my next kiss for my wife-to-be"

and the next thing after like an hour !
omg !

2006-09-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

-edited!

hello [:

i'm a happy girl today !
:D

aye,
it's a special day today!
180906.
09:51pm [:

w* : come come i tell you a secret ! but you have to close your eyes !
me : why must i close my eyes! secrets only need ears what !
w* : just close! my secret special!
me : okayy. quick !
w* : *mwaa*

heh.
i was damn shocked lah !
omg,
he stole my first received kiss you know!
>;]
cannot lor ! $%@#&
actually can lar :D

muahaha.
omg !

heh. im not gonna wash my face today !
and tmr !
and tmr !
err, kidding :/
heh.

oh, its on the cheeks btw.
heh.

and did i mention,
he looks exceptionally charming today ! :D

maybe it's the shirt :/

ohh,
too much sugar intake too.
he tried to jump from one end of the sofa to the other without touching the sofa.
crazy,
or crazy ?
heh.

but i likeee :D

aye,
so you know,
we have the same dreamhouse.
i was so shocked when i asked him what his was,
cos it was EXACTLY the same as mine.
no cheating,
it was exactly the same !
[:

big house by the white sandy clear water beach.
big garden plantd with lovely roses (his with sunflowers)
front garden with our cats and dogs.
& just the two of us.
[:

it's exactly the same lah !
well, almost exactly.
freaky no?
:/

<3
now and forever [:

2006-09-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

hello ! :D

okay, i shall blog an entry about the things i keep in this box!

here goes!

this pen is the pen he threw up to the ground from the swimming pool!
and supposingly,
i owe him a hug :/
ahh,
i decided that i'll give that hug to him on his bday :D

muahaha.
our msging paper :x

his band.
he gave it to me on the day i left for hk.
& he said that he wears it quite often
^^

oh and this picture too.
its a picture of me and fireworks :D
it says.
"Siobhan,
my fire,
my light,
& my saviour :D "
sweet, no?

a postcard :D

that Big M drink we shared :D
and the straw !

muahaha.
he fed me this :p

entry ticket to the zoo!
heh ! 0409

the different kind of hearts he gave me.
bus tix, menus :/, receipts etc.

heh.
-

oh and this is the cranes i made for him !

i started folding on that day he made me really really really sad):

well, 999 cranes in 2 weeks ! :D
i'll be giving it to him on his bday !
[:
-

oh and i was just msging him about stuff.
and suddenly he talked about how life would be with his wife in the future blah.
he say stuff that were really sweet [:
i asked him why tell me these all of a sudden..
he said:

(and he made me smile to myself :D)
"and becos well. hehe. i'm msging you also :p thats why i suddenly think of that kinda things"
:D
:D
:D
:D

i miss you lah !
ni zhai na li ! ):
<3

2006-09-17T19:54:00.000+08:00

HELLO !

ayee.
photos up!
under the CANDID area [:
ahh,
the zoo pictures.
heh.

and yes.
he'll be bowling with his boyfriend tonight!
wa lauuu,
alx,
you suck lar!
>;[
):

<3

2006-09-17T17:09:00.000+08:00

hello !
new skin!
new skin !
nice? :D

ahh,
i love it lar!
heh.
-

so,
i've been stoning at home :/
ahh,
not in the mood to study lar.
shit *
:/

alright,
I MISS HIM LAH DAMMIT ):

i didn't get to meet him today ):
he has gotta study for his test tmr ( so it's okay lar )
& he might be meeting alex later for bowling.
AGAIN ):

wa lau,
alex you suck lar dammit !
:x
ahh,
kidding.

oh and he was supposed to go for ice-cream with me yesterday,
but alex!
AHHH.
):

and he msged me smth yesterday which made me smile to myself :D

"siobhan, you know there's just something about you that i'm so amused about?
in a good way. hehe. i just always seem to know you a little and a little at each time "
ahhh :D

oh and im snow white !
insiders :D

hmm,
it seems like i can't live without this dumbo eh?
ahhh !

for the next ten years [:

2006-09-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

ahhh,
i miss you lar ):

shit* you alex ! :x

BOO
>;[

2006-09-16T13:25:00.000+08:00

HELLO !
:D

muahaha.
i just woke up not too long ago ^^
feels good to sleep so much lar !
heh.
it's been awhile ok !

so yesterday was alright.
firstly,
i met w* in town to get my idiotic ipod fixed !
>;]
they'll probably take a week or so ):

ohoh !
and the new ipod nano is LOVEE !
i want i want !:D

went down to taka after that for lunch.
couldn't decide where to eat,
so i suggest mac :/
LOL.
fattening, i know :/

i ate so disgusting-ly.
wa lau, i cannot tahan myself.
and he kept laughing at me !
not my fault ok !
i'll never eat a foldover infronta him ever again !
>;[

walked over to wisma to get lam's present.
bought him a shirt from Flesh Imp.
oh, and i got one for myself too :D
heh.

pp-ed after that as it was still early.
met up with serene and the three of us just walked aimlessly in pp.
and w* kept bum-ing into his friends.
ahh,
abit weird you know :/
haha.

so w* walked over to Lorong M with us and left he for home.

lam's party was alright.
not tooo bad afterall [:

-
oh w* is gay along with his bestfriend alex.
HAHAHAHA.
aiya,
who watches tv at HOME with his bestfriend at NIGHT?
hello,
gym? swimming?
isn't that what u both usually do ?
why tv?
LOL.

i dont know,
but i find it so funny lar.
heh.

alirght, i needa eat and bathe and off to meet w* to study !
EOY EOY !
:/

<3
i never felt like this before.
never so much in love [:

2006-09-15T00:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR SYAZANA !
MY LOVELY BANANA :D

& not forgetting,
my lovely ice-mountain !
I LOVE YOUUU [:

when u leave this year,
don't forget me okay ?
cos i'll be very sad if you do.
i'll miss you,
i know ):
forget me not no matter what ok !

you've been sucha great and lovely friend !
i can never imagine how different my life would be without you in it [:

once again,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE ! [:

2006-09-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

jay chou's songs makes me feel damn emo.
wa lauuuu.

not that i'm feeling depressed and all,
BUT,
just emo.
HAHAHAHA.

can't deny,
his songs are damn meaningful lar [:

2006-09-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

emo.

am i normal?

ahh,
IRRITATED.

2006-09-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

why?
why?
tell me why?
):

how could you ?
leave me just like that.
all of a sudden.
without a word at all.

how could you do that?

i feel so depressed right now.
it feels like a part of me will be gone.
sigh.
...

DAMN YOU IPOD ! ):
just died on me just like that !
you think you show that say x.x face very cute isit !
HAIYO.
IRRITATINGGGG.

how to survive my bus rides?!
how to talk to myself and my ipod?!
HOW ?
(yeah talking to myself = two person in my head communicating. ahh, you wont gettit :D )
wah shitttt you !
SHITT YOU.

and it will probably take a week to get you fixed.
HOW TO STUDY LIKE THAT?!

ugh.

2006-09-12T18:55:00.000+08:00

hello people [:

reality check !
EOY in 3 weeks ):

woohoo,
im stuck at ss.
oh no,
its the only shit i haven't done.
oh and maths :D
heh,
i hate maths ! >:]

that aside,
well,
let me just say,
i've been thinking alot yesterday.

before i start with geog,
i shall blog about what i've been thinking then [:

evertything about the past.
ahh,
its pretty weird looking back eh.
well, not exactly weird though.
heh.

d was when all the tingly tingly thingy started.
feeling stuff like this for the first time.
funny isn't it? heh
call it puppy-love [:
well,
he'll be one that i'll never forget,
for he left an impact.
after the second time,
i realise that,
well, he isnt the one for me afterall.
he was sweet,
but not enough to show my worth.

bk was hmm, what should i call it ?
mistake?
well, not exactly.
but yeah somehwere along that line i guess.
not that he was a mistake,
but it was just not meant to be i guess.
he was nice, a nice guy infact.
but oh well [:
3 years,
and i gave in ?
hmm, silly :x
dont be silly girls,
trust me :D

c was something different ?
well,
it somehow did grew?
the first time i ever felt something more than just liking someone.
but i guess it soon faded off.
i don't know why either,
i was lost.
i left in june,
& i finally let it all off in aug.
yes, silly.
[:

w*
AHH !
SCREAMS!
[:
i never felt so loved in my life.
never did i felt so much for someone before [:

7 years from 050906.
i promised him that i'll go to hawaii with him ! [:
05092013 [:
here i comeeee !

dont go anywhere k ?
[:

2006-09-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

HELLO !
:D

i'm back from hong kong !
well, infact, i was back yesterday :D

heh.
i missed him so much especially!
):
5 days w/o him is shit.
it seemed like forever you know ):

& i finally got to meet him today !
heh.

i gave him this natural heart plant thingy.
its imported from thailand.
its really cute !
heart shaped plant :D

supposingly,
you're to make it a wish and it'll sort of come true if you have little ones growing from it after some time ?
heh. yup.

so i kept one for myself :D
heh.

so i met him at the club house.
played with the tarot cards.
sadly,we din know how to play with the real deck.
which is the more professional one ):
oh well.

ohoh and ngiam and ivy came :D
so w* started asking them stupid riddles.
lol.
he and his dumb riddles huh.

made our way out to gelare for some food.
OHOH and guess who we saw!
VINCENT NG !
that oh-so-macho-man ! :D
and w* went over and got me his signature :D
it's on my file!
:D

jealous, no?
heh.

so the four of us started talking about relationships, status, our past and all.
i'm glad his guy no.2 = guys-who-matured-after-army [:
i like how we talk about things like this,
cos he makes me feel more secured and stuff [:
<3.

ahh,
im so glad they could get along with him [:
and ngaim was practically stoning cos i bet she didn't get whatever w* was saying.
HAHA.

ivy was thinking alot i guess.

well, at least from w* now we can understand guys better eh ?
well, somewhat.

and w* found out alot of me today huh.
lucky him to be with me and the girls or he'll never know.
i bet he was giggling the whole time.
ahh, idiot :D

he folded five hearts for me today :D
sweeetness !

i kept hitting him today :D
well, as he said,
that was to compensate for the past five days !
heh.
dumb pig!

this 90 mins with him and the girls was bliss [:
ahh,
i guess he isnt bad eh girls ?
:D

i love you more and more and more and more after every other day [:

to wait forever, would you ?
i would [:
& you're the reason why.

2006-09-06T13:14:00.000+08:00

"i'll be here"
"i'll catch you when you fall"
"i'll fall with you"
[:

will you stick by what you say ?
-
i'll be off to the airport at 4 or so.
it'll be five days without you baby.
holy shit ):

6 hours is already shit.
what about 5 days then?
):

ahhh.
i'llmissyoulove.

2006-09-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

am i someone you meet cos you'll be coming home ?
am i just that someone you meet cos you dont have anything to do no more ?

sometimes,
i just wonder.

- © E r U r O i © - Running Everyday To Keep In Shape! says:
why buy a 2nd hand when you can afford a new one?

el,
we said.

but still,
cant i be scared ?
you know, you'll never know what's on his mind.
cos i cant know and i wont want to.

who am i to him in the first place ?
yes, someone,
but then again,
i'm no one.
you get it?

and he loved her so much.
yes,
it was the past.

but history can repeat itself.
he loved her once,
his parents loved her so too.
so who is gonna win?
she.

i'll cry too.

2006-09-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

whee ! :D

trip to the zoo with him today !
heh.

arrived at the zoo at bout 11 plus.
the journey there aint that long afterall
:D heh.

the zoo is huge !
well, not that actually.
the only thing we didn't visit was the sunbears ):

oh well,
we visited everthing else though !

oh we were actually cam-whoring on the bus.
HAHAHA.
and its the first time he actually did that.
he has the natural ability to act cute btw.
TSK !
HAHAHA.

alright i shall let the pictures do the talking :D

SEE HE IS GOOD AT ACTING CUTE LAH!
HEH.

2006-09-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder, what am i to you ?
it hurts just thinking about it.

there's so much i wanna do,
so much that i wanna say..

but i know,
i can't.

cos im a nobody.

where is everyone else?
sigh.

2006-09-02T00:17:00.000+08:00

sometimes,
i just feel like crying.

cos i fear.
i fear that one day you might just go.

dont ever leave ok ?

cos i'll just cry if you do.

promise me,
will you?

2006-09-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SLIMMER ! :D

after walking for 5 freaking hours !
-gulps.
crazy shit ! :/

we walked all the way from my place's ECP's underpass to near changi airport then to lagoon for dinner and all the way to parkway :/
crazycrazy.

but it was ncie just walking aimlessly [:

spent some time talking about stuff.
nice [:

thanks for being so honest with me.
thanks for always telling me about what's going on.
thanks for always being there.

ohoh !
im the sea princess!
believe it or not :D

<3.
this i promise you.

2006-08-31T20:39:00.000+08:00

sakae-ed with w* on tues :D

something embarrassing happened !
i spilled coke while trying to boast to him!
>;]
wa lau, so embarrassing !
& he couldn't stop laughing at me !
boo.

i didn't get to meet him on wed which is weird ):
& I WONT BE ABLE TO MEET HI MTODAY ALSO LAR !
): wtf.
i very sad you know !
why did i sleep !

WHY WHY WHY TELL ME WHY!
):

ohoh!
and he actually caleed * already and told him about how he cant ___ __ __ :D
so its all settled !
yay, he would be able to push me away anymore >:]

dont you say you have something to tell me?
tell me.

you should let me love you.

2006-08-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

dont try pushing me to someone else ):
im not gonna go anywhere.

yes, im reserved dammit.
i dont care if there isnt such a thing,
but im reserved by you !
ugh.

i know you aint feeling too good about this,
neither am i ):

2006-08-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

you & i..
walk beside each other day after day.
but there is so much inside me that i never get to say.
my life would be so empty with nothing left to feel..
if you didn't love me

why does my heart cry for you every single time when i'm not with you ?
sigh.

you are all that i ever needed.

oh,
did you say 5 years?
i'll wait.
just promsie me that you wont leave.
will you?

2006-08-27T17:59:00.000+08:00

aye, no time to blog :/

i actually fell off the sofa the other day infronta him ! ):
too much running around till i couldnt get a hold of my balance!
marr ! where were you? );

trips to the beach [:

catching at the beach :D

random "i dont wanna talk to you anymore" moments :/

me threatening to tickle you when you're driving,
& you'll use that excuse that you're driving to stop me :x

je t'aime ?
:D

& now he owes me something for bluffing me me that there'll be fishes !
:D

muahah.

2006-08-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

hello !
:D

heh.
& so i finally made a trip down to the botanical gardens :D

w* met me at the mrt and we took a train down :D
heh.

botanical gardens is seriously very very HUGE !
ahh, and we actually walked rom on end to the other !
that is like from tanglin to bukit timah you know :/

and we were dripping water like there's no tomorrow :/
haha.

but the lucky thing was that i actually got some good shots lah.
heh.

we actually got lost on the way and i so badly wanted to stop right there !
luckily i he was there to carry my stupid heavy bag for me :D
heh <3.

the bus ride back was looooong !
an hour or so ):
he made me look so silly on the bus >;[
kept making me laugh,
ah, stupid boy :D

oh well, thanks for everything [:

because of you [:

2006-08-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

sigh.

though you are always indirectly assuring me that things wont change,

..

i do fear that someday it would.
who wouldn't ?

yes,
i am feeling insecure.
& i have no idea why too.
not that you've done anything wrong.
but,
what can i do ?
nothing..

you are really already a part of me,
and there is nothing i can do about it now.
somebody..
help me ):

im feeeling so sh*t.
ugh.

2006-08-20T18:15:00.000+08:00

god dammit.

i miss you lah ):

2006-08-19T17:41:00.000+08:00

hello ! :D

heh.
& so i met him for ice-cream yesterday night :D
hehe.
and i was super wuper hyper yesterday !
i have no idea why though :/

i probably irritated him to the max :x
muahaha !
it's fun irritating him you know !
& he even pretended to walk off la that idiot ! >;]

and so it was ben&jerry's for us :D

we wanted haagen dasz though,
but nah,
B&J has cuter ice-creams :D

he smudged ice-cream onto my face ):
evil piece of person !

it was yet another night of slacking at the playground.
ahh, and he attempted to scare the neighbours !
tsktsk >;]

you make me wanna..
[:
-

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you

Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here, waiting for you

[:

2006-08-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

heh !

i felt so silly talking to you "through" the window :/

ahh ahh :'D
but nevertheless, i was really glad you came to see me [:

aye,
what a suprise eh. heh.

"walk to your window now!"
& the next thing i saw was.. you [:
bliss.

weee,
it was really great seeing you !
i miss you lar ):
ROAR.

yay,
i cant wait for tmr :D

<3.

and there is smth wrong with my tagboard :/
gotta change it soooon.

2006-08-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

i miss w* so bloody much ):

i didn't see him yesterday and i'm not gonna see him today ):
i was sick yesterday & he has night lesson today );

but he's the sweetest little thing everr [:
he actually walked from my garden back to my room's window just to check whether i was at home and all.
ahhahh :'D

i miss him lah
):

2006-08-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

every single time i walk away from you,
i'll feel the yearn.
the yearn for you.
again & again.

i miss you love ):

c'mon baby we ain't gonna live forever.

2006-08-15T16:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO ! :D

im one happy kid !
you know why !
cos,

1. i passed my maths,
scored pretty well for geography elec,
scored a B for chinese,
passed my stupid sci :D
although sci wasnt a good pass or anything, but im happy,
considering the fact that many failed from 3/3 & 3/4 :D

2. my mummy bought me nata de coco :D

3. i will be heading down to ikea or something this weekend to semi-renovate my stupid messy room !

say YAY ! :D
heh.

ohoh,
you know what the suprise was! :D

he drove me down to ECP's mac for breakfast !
& we ate in the car.
ahh, bliss [:

the drive-thru thingy is so cool !
muahaha.

so,
i'll be doing my art later on.
i dont wanna fail art lar :D
wee !

So darling, save the last dance for me.
[:

2006-08-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

muahaha!

i met him for a little while just now :D

at least i managed to do some chem notes before he came.

went over to 13's playground for a little while,
and this super cute black cat came along !
we started playing with it.
it's super active and it attempted to kill a cockroach with the help of w*.
tsktsk.
evil beings eh.

& he'll be sending me to school tmr :D
he says he has a suprise for me !
wee.

<3
time seems to fly whenever im with you ):

2006-08-14T19:25:00.000+08:00

and so, i forogt to wake up for school today :/

aye, its good though,
cos it gives me time to do my tuition hw !
:D
i guess it's a blessing in disguise eh.

ahh, and i havent seen him yet for today !
i miss him lar ):

we meet almost every single day,
thus when i dont see him,
i will miss that boy so blooody much ):
so irritating ! ):

ahh !
%^$!@*&
so tell me,
how do i live without you?):

2006-08-13T18:34:00.000+08:00

hello ! im back :D

hehs.

guess where i went to yesterday !

heh.
we went over to video ezy to borrow dvds,
& then over to his place to watch them.

so first up was fragile.
its nice :D

it's that kinda horror movies where there's actually a story line and it's freaky at the same time.

you guys should really watch it :D

ohoh,
and i saw his pri, sec, jc photos.

he looks like the w* i know when i was in sec 1 when is was in JC.
he looks a little different now :D

ahh, fatter ! :D
heh.

went off after that and went for the fireworks display with bro, his friend, serene and ji.
pretty :D
and i called when he called.
telepathy :D
heh.
ayeee, im going nuts soon !

arab street serves good food :D
lovely cozy little place.

and as for today,
woke up to a miss call from him.
went over to watch south park and accompany this pig.
ayee, and i have no idea why but we started fighting/tickling :D
and i almost fell asleep.
lol.

oh well, i've gotta get going and start with my tuition hw ):

>:]
it felt like a kiss.

2006-08-12T12:56:00.000+08:00

alright !

i shall do a proper introduction for this blog.
HAHA.

willlove.b came about thanks to marriiiaaammm !
i guess it's pretty obvious what it means eh ? :D
the will&love combined.

& as for the picture,
the heart thingy is given by him*
:D

& as for the password,
whateverforever[:,
whenever he passes a STUPID comment,
i would say WHATEVERR,
and he would reply foreverrr !
heh.

aye, stupid boy !

oh well,
people,
dont link me ok.
come more often to tag as well :D

<3

2006-08-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

hello !
heh.

im happy happy happy ! :D
weee, im so happy !

i went to watch the fireworks today with w* !

though we were there at like 730pm,
it was already so bloody packed ! ):

we had to climb up to the railing/bar thingy.
& my ass hurts now lah !

it was nice just talking to him about my life for that hour plus.
it felt really really good [:

& not forgetting ,
the fireworks were so so so so pretty !
its like the best of the best !
ayeee, too bad for thoese who din go for it.
its just too pretty to even describe it :D

and it really felt so good watching it with him [:
sitting side by side,
having someone to pull ur hand and guide you along,
having a shoulder to lean on,
having someone to protect you from the crowd,
having someone to fall back on & stuff.
ayee, lovely [:

i just love spending time with him,
cos one very simple reason,
he talks to me about things that i dont usually want to talk about.
we would like talk about life & what we want in life and stuff.
& i would just pour everything out on him.
oh and about our past and stuff.

i ~~love~~ this stupid boy so much lah ! :D

long bus rides seems so much shorter when im with you [:
& yes i heard what you say w*,
if only i was older eh?
sigh.

2006-08-11T00:39:00.000+08:00

yay finally done! :D

muahaha.
isn't it pretty ?

well, this blog is gonna be pretty juicy !
heh.

so i shall start blogging tmr.
its getting late already.
ahh, sch tmr! ):

<3.

i miss william! :D

2006-08-10T23:24:00.000+08:00